THE FOOLISH FOOL, FOOLED BY FOOLISHNESS

I've discovered a new understanding of my vocabulary:

1. If I begin a statement with the words "Now really", then your eyes immediately glaze over, and everything post will be abjectly ignored until
2. I say some completely rational shit in which you
3. suddenly arrive at concurrence with me, in which
4. we can, therefore, continue a decent conversation, wherein
5. you agree with what I fucking had to say in the first place. 

bezoar [4.8.2015]

I'm gonna make my own god. with yellow cake and regret, and mix it with leavened outrage and a pinch of sea-salt. 23 minutes, and at least a day's rest, we have a batter of the purest bullshit.

and then I'm gonna bake my god in an oven which the heat source is a chemical miasma of false-facts, political pandering, 

and a bezoar for flavor.

then&yet [4.6.2015]

missives beguiling and ground-level radiation. live for now, but only because then is shit, and yet means nothing less than resignation. always a twitch where the clock is ticking, and always a click where the twitch is losing time. and, you bet the world won't stop turning, regardless of the current climate. so, come again another day.

considering the established end, it's not the flesh of weak humans which other humans will consume, but the stories of the weak instead. 

history is merely the predator writing the sad tale of its prey.   

jagged is better than jilted, unless the latter is self-imposed. jittery is also an acceptable answer. provided it is posed in the form of a question. and blood is a great cleanser, provided that it's your own. just be careful of where you leave it to dry.

cause everyone knows they're coming. the proverbial they. coming to take the proverbial yours. arriving in the proverbial unbidden. better batten down those proverbial hatches, place your proverbial head between your proverbial knees, and kiss your proverbial ass goodbye, proverbially.  

fragrant spiders [April Fool's 2015]

I thought I'd avoid the mess by placing the incense near the ceiling, but all I did was make the spiders more fragrant. the ashes, well, where they landed remains a mystery. and these days, it seems, I am amused by nothing. 

and nothing is amused by me.

somewhere amidst this secret mathematic there's a queer code hidden within the folds of a feverdream. its mystic twists holding shame in coils of psychological fealty. "count the hours. count the minutes." serfing the tide, so to speak. 

and so the tide speaks of the serf.

the only true success in this scenario belongs to the spiders that bite you in your sleep, and then crawl away unscathed. you're left with nothing but itchy red bumps and confusion. awakening to a lost battle of their design.

and so the design is lost to their awakening. 

apnea [4.2.2015]

yesterday, I dreamt that I was lost in some abandoned labyrinthine mall. concrete walls giving way to sinister subterranean multi-plexes and ghastly food-courts. neglected shops; their wares intact. in fact, everything, including the lights. the whole place lit up like business as usual, but I was the only one there. yet, the ironic thing is that I found this horror while running away from people. just wanted to be the fuck alone. no more ugly voices. no more useless attempts to expain myself. no more regret.  no more. then, when all seemed to be right in line with my intentions; when all seemed to be perfectly apropos...none of it belonged to me at all, and I required someone in which to share it. otherwise, it all would turn on me, like rabid bliss. my misanthropy, being the absentee minotaur of this convoluted maze. then the lights dimmed. my labyrinth (suddenly no doubt that it was mine) heaved & swelled like a vast gaudy lung. or, maybe, a monumental shrug? in the end...

GARGOYLES (3.29.2015)

granted the darkness in which to be taken. always the filigreed shadows. you want a wretched gag, then wait until sunrise. 

the manifest will be met.

gargoyles are circling, up there with the drones. the sky is fucking crowded these days. despite our despiting. and, you can pretend your worries are up there as well, hiding among the clouds. don't look up. lest your eyes be filled with lenses of lesser gods. shave your beards in supplication, if you please.

rip my lip and tell me it's cancer. mistake me for uncaring, and call it truth. out of the frying pan and into the toilet. they author such, don't they? 

integrity is a receipt with no purchase.

some get taught to augur the future with their ear to the soil, while others are still digging with sticks. either way, you're bound to puncture the water-table. create a fucking geyser in your life. 

in all seriousness (3.28.2015)

imagine the last time someone, in all seriousness, began a conversation with you using the words "Given the stakes...", and then lie to me. 
imagine the last time someone, in all seriousness, began a conversation with you using only positive words, and not complaints, and then lie to me.
imagine, in all seriousness, the reverse of that scenario, and then lie to me.
let's just keep on lying to eachother, because to do otherwise...
let's just keep on lying to eachother, because it's easier with lies...
I imagine, that's it's not so hard to imagine such a place, 
when the world in which you wake, in all seriousness, 
wears your own face.
let's just keep on lying to eachother, because to do otherwise...
let's just keep on lying to eachother, because it's easier with lies...